Saturday, July 4, 2009
Just myself
But I'm tired of complaining and feeling sorry for myself. I should just let things go. Should it come back, or just fade, I'll let time decide. Right now, I'm too tired to talk about it..
Sunday, June 14, 2009
The heart of a stranger..
I lie on my bed sometimes after a cry and thought about dying.
I wanna listen to sad songs but none can be my song.
I wanna text someone to tell him I'm sad but I pull myself back and tell myself it's not going to be better.
Why do I feel like this? So much things in my head.
Yesterday I thought about my grandma who just passed away few months ago. I was wondering how she would be like now. I was thinking about how her nails will look like it is still growing after her death, but actually it's just her corpse is drying and shriking that's why her nails looks like it's still growing. I didn't even realize that I was crying..
I remember few days after she passed away I asked my mom, "were you sad when your mother passed away?" and she told me she was, she didn't have anybody to turn to, if she have questions anymore. And now she just have to rely on herself. But as I was really sad during those days, other people arehappy and enjoying their life. "How could this happen, when my life is upside down?" I asked myself..
I feel really sad. I still miss her and I think about her and I dream about her.
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Nowadays, I come back to a foreign house. A place just for me to stay, it's not my home. And I despise this place.
I want to sing! I want to play guitar! I want to dance! I want to laugh before I sleep! And I want to laugh first thing in the morning!
But all I have is my room..
Sometimes I end up driving at night.. And as I pass the street lights, and the neon green lights of a signboard on a building, I feel strangely exhilarated. Makes me forget. And I blast the radio. The last I did that was a few days ago where I went driving for almost 2 hours.
For once, I would like to stop loving people other than my own self. For once I don't want to care. I want to stop caring about my family, my bf, my friends, the sick children, the dying old lady, the dead, the animals.
I'm tired and nobody cares about me.
I wanna dance when someone dies. I wanna drink when they leave. I wanna sing when you cry. For once I wanna feel how other people feel, when they're not sad..
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Another one.. LMAO..
Look at the cake!! It's Thomas the Train!! I should've taken the pic from the front angle, whoever made this must be a genius!
The party started at 6 p.m. and ended around 11 p.m. but we only went back after 3 a.m. cause the men were talking and drinking non stop. Well, except Jason who was sleeping on the floor. Satish my love, Leonard, Uncle George and Uncle Ravi had cans of beers and was talking about everything. Like Satish said, it's easier to ask what he didn't talk about, hahaha.
And today, I and Satish had pork mee.. OMG, the taste, the texture, it's just so satisfying. Nuff said.
One day we shall go together, and you'll taste this God's gift to human life soup, yum.. It's extraordinary..
Love y'all..
A masquerade
Wear a mask on a masquerade
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
~Business Plan.. Woot!!~
Another day with little-miss-trouble. Check out my blog layout, cute ay? Thanks to my faithful and gorgeous best friend Miss Maika, I'm a complete hopeless in this kind of things.. Get free blog template at Birdie Says.
Anyways, I was just reading her blog a while ago and she was talking about our business plan. Haha.. All because of my friend Trecy's new contact lens business. Oh for those who wants to buy colored contact lenses, here's her link, please click here.
Things to think about:
1) What type of business?
Suggestion so far: Clothing
2) Where to buy?
Suggestion so far: Bandung or Sg. Wang (Haha!!)
3) How much capital?
Suggestion so far: RM200-300
4) When to start?
Suggestion: Mid of the year or END of the year..
5) Constraints
Only me as I'm going to Bali next month and I can't commit too much capital!!! Broke gila..
What should I do? What should we do?
Whoops!! While blogging I was also doing some supplier search and found these, what do u think Miss Maika?
- Free Market (But it says in the web page buatan Malaysia.. nuff said..)
- Korean Clothes Wholesale
- Trade key
- Alibaba-Global Trade Starts Here
Ika, can you check theses suppliers? Should we go and survey ourselves and pick our own cloths or what? Ngaahh... Duunnooo...
To be continued and updated with more ideas and suggestions and trouble..
Love y'all..
Monday, March 30, 2009
Help me make some beauty decision plleasssee..
My skin's really rough around the side of my face especially on the cheekbone